The memories that will never fade…

the very first day when i step into the guards camp, feeling was so sian, just don’t have the motivation to move on. seem like feeling quite depress. well as expected. in the guards camp if you have not been converted to guards, people look at you differently. that’s some kind of shitty feeling. had turn out on the first night, doing marches, PT, boat PT, beach PT. sometime i ask myself did i wanted to come this place. i don’t know, i could not answer. but it seem like i don’t have a choice either. had tough time during the course. been treated like dogs.

on sat, morning went to watch fantastic four with liang, dap, phin and des. that show is not bad. after that we break up. i went for my commissioning’s ball with pei zhen at marina mamdarin. it has been awhile never meet her. met my ocs friends. we all had good time there. i think picture speak a thousand words. will upload the photo soon.

today nothing much was done. basically grounded at home. soon going to booking to that camp again.

after 9jun.. i am officially an officer. well wearing that rank in camp kind of don’t feel easy. people see you from a different view. it seem like there is an image to up hold. maybe i am not use to it yet. like what spider-man show said with “great power comes with great responsibility”. now that i got that power to command, from now once i take over my men i got to be accountable for each one of them. i really hope that i could master the art of doing this. sound so cool huh yet so hard to achieve..
time really passed so fast. remembering that the other time i just cross over from SISPEC. now commission already. those international cadet who came to train with us also had went back to their country. i guess we won’t have another chance to see each other anymore. sound quite sad. after all we all went through all the hardship together, had fun together. the rest of my friends who posted to a different place from me, i guess we will hardly have time to meet too. tomorrow i will be reporting to 3rd GUARDS. another part of army life going to start soon. initially i was not mentally prepared for that posting. usually i will be excited when i am moving up to a higher lever, but this time round i kind of felt a little bit of fear. maybe because i heard too many rumours about that course. everyone was like heng ar never get to go guards. because that unit they train special ops, training people to be elite. can be quite siong. some people say guards are those under paid commando. because their paid is not as high as the commando, and further more, the siong-ness for both can compare one. i don’t know if i am up for this course anot, but seeing so many people who had passed that course, i guess as long i don’t give up on myself, i sure can do it.

always ready, ready to strike!!!

fallen sick on Monday morning. that day as usual, went for parade rehearsal. but i just don’t feel good feel rather lousy. that training i almost cannot take but still pull through. had mild fever, body feel jelly, cough and flu. my face really don’t look good. in the afternoon attended some talk which will cast you to sleep. that’s worst, because you cannot sleep and eyes were all around. well at least i got to sit down and rest. till the night i then can have good rest. had medicine and go into sleep. by now should be recovering. hope that tomorrow will be better.

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well yesterday after book felt rather tired. reached home just fallen a sleep without knowing it. the next thing i know was the sky turning dark. parade rehearsal can be so tiring one meh. lol.. then later met up with ray, went to buy present for vonnie. well we came out with something special. if you wants to know go ask her lor. hehe.. went for her party. played some games, like five ten, zero zero seven. loser suppose to drink. quite stupid but it’s fun seeing your friend losing and drinking. after her party, planned to go watch movie at tampines but there was no timing available. so we went to had some drinks and chat at mac. till about 2 plus, headed home.

this morning, went to meet ken and teo hwee for basketball game. forgotten when i last played, really so busy. really enjoyed myself, sweat it out for a few game. skill not as sharp as before, but i am still there one. after that had lunch at our usual place. then headed home. reached home knock out for awhile, as last night never sleep much due to watching the show, twin of brother at crunchyroll. wake up and continue the show since i am finishing it already. about 6plus went to pass vonnie the passes for my commissioning parade. i think this might be one of the few times that i waited for her instead of her waiting for me. then later back to camp.

there was some observation make. i just don’t understand why when i out of camp, i am easily irritated. don’t really have patient for people. when someone started to nag, i just feel like head going to burst. my buddy also agree with me, he is also facing the same problem. i think i had to sort this out before it turn worst.

on wed, ocs had PT challenges. we had to do IPPT in team and do relay runs. well my first station was 2.4km. wah liu.. after run how to do other station, sure cannot perform one. but our team press on. we try to do the best out of it. well when the result was out for IPPT section, my team had the best score. i never thought that we could win. never expect to take that gold. maybe my team was quite balance, no one was neither too weak nor too power. well on the other hand, i had another team for 10 times 400m. all i can say was that my team was super strong. when the race started, the first runner got push and drop the baton. as i was the second runner, i was feeling so stress. but as soon as he recover, he caught up from last to 4th. quite a good recovery.  he is good. well as expected we came in first. but somethings happen. when the last runner tries to over take the other guy, and he was push off the track just for one two step. we were disqualified. feeling sad but there was  nothing we  can do. it was just too bad.

today, had my army cert presentation ceremony(ACPC). today is the day i got my sword with my name on it. 2LT TAY GUANG CHENG. heh… still waiting for that 9 jun to come. got my posting too. i am posted to GUARDS. siong oo… had to undergo guards conversion course(GCC). camp is at bedok camp. 3rd guard unit. still have to be trainee for at least a month more before i am in command.

tmr still got parade rehearsal. ah dui.. when then i can book out!!!!