The memories that will never fade…

Recipe For A Student Cake:
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• Sift two cups of Obedience, two tablespoons of Discipline and one tablespoon of Punctuality. Set aside.

• Beat five eggs of Truthfulness, three cups of sweetness and one cup of Hard work.

• Add a pinch of Work Experience.

• Knead well with Obedience ,Discipline and Punctuality.

• Put in a greased pan of Learning and bake in the oven of Education.

• Remember to cover with a thick layer of Love and Care.

• Decorate with prayers of Thankfulness to the Almighty.

• Serve generously with a smile to the family, the country and the world.

haven really update for quite a while. well, the whole of last week in camp was filled up with parade training. so sian. on the first training, half way through, suddenly i felt chest pain, so hard to breath, face turn pale. almost fainted, but did’t. fall out for a while then get back in parade again. don’t know why i feel so weak that day. maybe i never sleep enough or i never drink enough water.

i heard this info about parade. they say number one parade in Singapore is the national day’s parade, number two is the SAF’s day parade. guess what is number three?? the officer’s commissioning parade. i saw my senior’s parade it was so grand and touching. even at their parade which was 3 month ago, don’t know why my tears feel like flowing out. maybe it makes me think how much we all went through to be in that parade. now that is my turn to be standing there, i am so proud of myself. i will be commissioning on the 9 jun 2007!!!!!!

yesterday, book out rather later in the afternoon. slack at home, watch some series show twin of brothers on crunchyroll. at night joined ray and hao ri to eat dinner at some jap place at PS. their service was not  really good. the food we ordered took like 2 million years to reach us. some more it seem like they forget our order. after dinner, scroll for awhile then headed to ray’s house. waited for shan hua to start our ritual, the mahjong game. we played throughout the night till morning about 5 plus. upon finishing the game i felt sharp pain in my stomach. the feeling is not like stomach ach. it is like gastric. went to had some food then headed home. well planned to rest for 2hrs so later can go meet Andrew for church. in actual fact, i over slept till 5pm. wasted my Sunday sleeping. what a joke. booking in the night.

every weekend it seem like so many things to be done, and so little time was given. i am feeling so lazy of this rush timing. i rather sit in fornt of my computer and watch some show and relax. rather let the problems run on its own and don’t care about it. i think i am not being very responsible. i always think about it but nothing has been done. i guess i had to slowly do whatever has to be done.

From a strictly mathematical viewpoint it goes like this:

What Makes 100%? What does it mean to give MORE than 100%? Ever wonder about those people who say they are giving more than 100%? We have all been to those meetings where someone wants you to give over 100%. How about achieving 103%? What makes up 100% in life?

Here’s a little mathematical formula that might help you answer these questions:

If:
A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z
is represented as:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26.

H-A-R-D-W-O- R-K
8+1+18+4+23+ 15+18+11 = 98%

and

K-N-O-W-L-E- D-G-E
11+14+15+23+ 12+5+4+7+ 5 = 96%

A-T-T-I-T-U- D-E
1+20+20+9+20+ 21+4+5 = 100%

B-U-L-L-S-H- I-T
2+21+12+12+19+ 8+9+20 = 103%

A-S-S-K-I-S- S-I-N-G
1+19+19+11+9+ 19+19+9+14+ 7 = 118%

So, one can conclude with mathematical certainty that While Hard work and Knowledge will get you close, and Attitude will get you there, it’s the Bullshit and Ass kissing that will put you over the top.

well this week don’t why also, so many thoughts running all over my mind. so many uncleared questions that cannot be answered. first thing first, what is welfare? does give your men a break means welfare? or does it means enforcing training? sometime as wing appointment holder, looking at the condition of the people, i really don’t feel like giving more training, but if don’t enforce they cannot perform. so now is results vs comfort. my PC would rather choice the unpopular choice to get results rather than giving comfort. but is’nt it pushing too hard? as for my point of  view, i think there must be a certain balances of both. easy to say hard to do. 

soon officer to be. 27 men will look up to me. any problem they will come to me. every move i make, i will be responsible for all of them. i am worry that my men will suffer as i may not be a good commander. well what it takes to be a good commander? it takes time to understand and learn. seeing my commanders, i wonder what they do, does that fit to be seen as good? 

today during close combat training, we had trial grading. well i had this partner, Ming xiang, his break fall is not very good and i don’t think he is feeling very well too. we started off doing all the stuns and break fall. half way through, i saw his face turning white. i was worried, but he insisted to carry on. until one throw, he fall on his back and seem to hurt his back. this point of time, i really don’t know what to do. very soon he stood up on his feet and told me to continue again. well to tell the truth, i don’t really feel like doing it properly already. i just let him fall on his own and then i continue. i was feeling so bad. i kept asking myself if i did wrong and cause his pain. well he may not do his part properly but i should also be responsible for it. he kept telling me that he is fine, but i just can’t forget about it.

tonight after routine order, had a little discussion with the wing appointment holders. they take about discipline. more and more people are fooling around, doing the wrong things at the wrong time. the discipline master wanted to give extra duty to the people already. my suggestion was not to give yet, instead give warning. about this guy fareeze, been caught a few times by the wing appointment holder already. when i talk to him about it, he will just give the excuses that why talk to me, others also not doing their stuff what. well as a friend i just wanted to remind him not to do it so much, he just won’t listen. but i knew he understand just that the ego is there. maybe i am just being too busy body.

sat was my little cousin, Li min’s birthday. my uncle had a family gathering at his house. met most of my uncles and aunties. don’t know why i just feel so sleepy. probably that week just finish my last official exercise. it was fun in a way and tiring because we had to carry boat. by the book it say 10 person to a boat but on the ground, about 20 to one boat. the boat is about 100kg over lor.. so heavy.. upon the end of the week had 10 km run.. i really push myself for that run.. i think i clock about 46++ min. i think that is a okay speed. after that run, my butt felt aching. the next day had close combat training, now prep for grading. plus i am the over all signal and optic in-charge.. had to settle everything.

weekend was short. but given long weekend i also don’t know what to do. don’t know why, but i am just bored with everything. so i slack at home watch twin of brothers on crunchyroll. sometime can watch till i fall a sleep in front of the com. watching series show, movie and animie had become my past time.

9jun reaching very very soon. each day is one day nearer. i don’t know what i will expect of me when i become an officer. one i become one, i am responsible for 27 men behind me. every decision i made will either benefit them or make them suffer. thank god for passing me the MSG to me. faith is what i need. i had to believe it will happen then things can start rolling.  

Does God Exist?

A man went to a barbershop to have his

haircut and his beard trimmed.

As the barber began to work,

they began to have a good conversation.

They talked about so many things and various subjects.
When they eventually touched on the subject of God,

 the barber said:

 ”I don’t believe that God exists.”

“Why do you say that?”

asked the customer.

“Well, you just have to go out in the

street to realize that God doesn’t exist.

Tell me, if God exists,

would there be so many sick people?

 Would there be abandoned children?

If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain.

 I can’t imagine a loving God who would allow all of these things.”

The customer thought for a moment,

 but didn’t respond because he didn’t want to start an argument.

Just after he left the barbershop,

he saw a man in the street with long,

 stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard.

 He looked dirty and unkempt.

The customer turned back and entered the

 barber shop again and he said to the barber:

“You know what? Barbers do not exist.”

“How can you say that?”

 asked the surprised barber.

“I am here, and I am a barber.

And I just worked on you!”

“No!”

 the customer exclaimed.

 ”Barbers don’t exist because if they did,

 there would be no people with dirty long hair

and untrimmed beards, like that man outside.”

“Ah, but barbers DO exist!

 What happens is, people do not come to me.”

“Exactly!”-

affirmed the customer.

“That’s the point! God, too, DOES exist!

What happens, is, people don’t go to Him

and do not look for Him.

 That’s why there’s so much pain and suffering in the world !”

downloaded lots of songs. song by song, album by album. next week having my last exercise. should be a one times good one. last week just finished tactics test. that was bad. i just barely just finish the paper. didn’t do that well.  no time to check. everyone was the same. some didn’t even finish. count myself lucky to finish it. did 9 km run. almost get hit by bus at the finishing line as i ran across the road. what am i thinking. i thought i see that bus, but i don’t understand why still i ran across. thank god for watching over me. now i am been appointed as the wing PT IC.. haha.. hope that i will be okay. in this post.